tired of not being able to say what is truly on my mind. this will do. :)

Perhaps you've heard Nerina Pallot's song "Learning to Breathe". The lyrics are amazing like all her songs. I've got a bit of work to do, to learn to breathe.

It's also been said, by some sagacious man, that humans have figured out everything except how to live. How do you live?

I've got to teach myself a few things. Like stop being so uptight and learning to laugh. Like when all my friends are laughing and I'm sitting there like a stone, not knowing if it's because I don't get what's so funny or just because I don't think it is. I don't think a lot of what they laugh at as funny. But maybe that's because I don't let myself.

I've also got to learn to let go of pretensions, because I do pretend, though I loathe and mock all others that don't stick to their true selves.

Perhaps I should be less of a cynic.